Breaking News

This just in the world and everyone in the entire duplex I live in now knows how much of a worthless piece of shit I am. Screamed at the top of lungs enough to wake everyone at midnight to hear I don't do a damn thing. So now I'm awake and have to leave for work in t-minus 6 hours and 45 minutes. Maybe if I call in I can sleep for an extra hour or two before starting yet another day in hell that's just waiting for my arrival. Patiently like a dark shadow surrounding me in the black hole that is worthlessness. 

When this argument comes up it hurts but now it feels excruciating. I'm working my damn ass off. and every other week I manage to fit two jobs into my schedule. I have paid rent by myself the past months when two other working people live in the house. I forked out the  270 dollar car insurance and an additional 430 for the car payments. Handing over all my hard earned money so that they can spend theirs however they want no consequences. So then what do I have to show for myself. nothing. Not a single damn thing. 

I don't want to feel like a expendable waste of space easily replaceable and usable. But here I am the Welcome mat in front of the door after a rainy muddy day. Usable to everyone else's benefit while I lay on the ground soiled and tarnished And absolutely sleep deprived. Pardon my in too deep ramble post.

Signing Off 

Waste of Space, Time, and the whole damn continuum,

P.s. (Catch my horribly out of place and inappropriate bach to the futre inside joke.)